About me

I love Demi Lovato.. probably like no fan has ever done. Her smile makes my breath fly away, I'm deeply sinked into her eyes, her songs make me fall in love with music even more, her voice is medicine for my ears, her words are medicine for my mind. I love you Demi -Joseph (me)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

A Closer Brotherhood

(I woke up on a hospital bed)

Doctor: hello? ... he's fine..
Female doctor: really? .. ahh thank God...
Surgeon: you will be assigned.. to a little sister.. are you related to the game Bioshock?
Me: uh-hum.. both games..
Surgeon: its something similar... but a little.. "closer"... follow me.. I'll explain you.

(I followed the doctor into another room.. when we got in, we saw some little girls, sleeping over the hospital beds... they seemed really adorable...)

Doctor: before we bring them to here, we ask them carefully if they want to be here.. we show them how the program works.. they are old enough.. we ask them if they are sure about having a big brother.. a lot of times.. until we completely confirm their decision.
Me: interesting..
Doctor: choose your little sister carefully... people usually commit the same mistake of just picking one randomly... you should feel... to be specific.. a small warm heat in your chest.

(I walked around the "little sisters".. I felt a link with one of them, with the name Nahomi. I approached and felt a stronger link.. )

Me: doctor.. I found her.. she's beautiful...
( I caressed her dark hair and she slowly opened her eyes)
Nahomi: [whispering] you're my big brother?

( I just couldn't hold the tears..)

Me: [tearing] yeah, I'm your brother..

Doctor: that's how you choose... I bet you'll be a great brother to her..
(then I approached another little sister.. and I felt another bond..)
Me: uhh.. doctor... can I have 2 little sisters?
Doctor: I don't think so... why?
Me: I also feel a link with her...
(I saw her... her name was Kira)
Me: .. doctor.. come on..
Doctor: I'm sorry but you.....Wait a second... is Kira crying?!

We heard and saw Kira sobbing... tears came out of her closed eyes...

Me: see?.. please doc..

the doctor looked around nervously.. and closed the windows.

Doctor: fine.. don't tell anybody... I don't wanna split brothers away... nobody is allowed to be out of here with 2 sisters.. or little brothers in the female case.
Me: thanks a lot doc.. really .. I appreciate that.
Doctor: lie down on the bed right beside Nahomi.. facing upside... you'll feel a little pinch..

A needle went into each of my wrists.. same to Nahomi. I turned to look at her... she smiled and I did too...again, my eyes became teary... I laid my head over the "pillow" when Nahomi did too.. then a needle went through the back of our heads.. we were injected a blue fluid that basically "connected" two bodies.. in other words, it improved communication between two people... not only verbally but mostly mentally.. it was almost like telepathy.

A while later, I woke up... as well as Nahomi.. she stood up.. and walked towards me.
Nahomi: hi Joseph..
Doctor: as you can see, she already knows your name... she knows almost everything about you as well as you from her... now.. it's Kira's turn..

Kira looked like Nahomi, even in hair color. There were a few differences like, skin tone, face structure, etc. but yet, they were both adorable.. and I promised to take care from them.

Me: punch it..
Doctor: connecting you to .. Kira..

Kira stretched her hand to me, I held her hand for a while.

Kira: thank you..
Me: you don't need to thank me... you already gave me a very special gift... your company... thank you..

(I released her hand and we placed our arms over the bed... needles pierced on our wrists and the back of our heads, or our temples)

The same fluid spread through our blood... and we slept for another while.. then.. we woke up..

Doctor: well.. its all done my friend.. take care of them..
Me: thanks a lot doctor..

(a couple of years later.. a war erupted)

(I woke up inside a house... there was no sound... until.. I realized I got deafened by a grenade for a while)

Nahomi: Joseph! Joseph! wake up! get to a low wall!.. take this rifle..

I shot dark silhouettes approaching the destroyed house.. until it was clear...

Kira: all clear!... I guess!..

We rested for a while.. until..

Nahomi: AGH! Joseph! Joseph!!

A black hooded hostile with a knife tried to stab Nahomi.. she was forcing his hand away from her neck.. I stood up and tackled him.. I took his knife and stabbed his neck.. I felt tense, I grabbed the knife tightly... then I released it..

Me: that was for my sisters..

Nahomi and Kira hugged me.. I hugged them back..

Me: we'll be fine.. we'll be out of here in no time..back home..
Nahomi: .. I guess we'll go walking..

(we walked away towards home...)

(Later)

Nahomi and Kira are standing over our house's rooftop, their hair waving with the wind, looking to the horizon. I was on the balcony below them.. looking at the horizon too...and I wondered.

Me: why did we needed the chemical, if we've been already linked up since before the injections?

A Guardian Behind Every Princess

Nahomi... the girl we're protecting, all twenty-seven of us.......She's going to a party... but... in the world of teenagers.. sometimes parties.. are ambushes. You have to be careful...

"She's entering the house, over"

This is the future of society.. wars... even in teenagers. I can't believe... how the world got stained in just a few years.

Me: I see her... listen.. I don't wanna lose her..
Unidentified [Female] : why is she so important for you?
Me: [whispering] she's the only girl who has actually demonstrated real affection to me..

Girl: welcome to the party..

Me: got her in sight.. ropes... Hayley, take the front door..
Hayley: got it..

we rappelled down the rooftops near the house.. the party was in the yard..

Girl: you may wanna take a seat........ girls... hold her tight... she'll tell us her secrets.. we'll make her do so..

Nahomi: NO!!

she screamed on top of lungs..

Me: INSIDE! TAKE THOSE WHORES DOWN!
Hayley: ELEANOR! rope behind you!

Eleanor backflipped over the rope, took it and suffocated 2 girls.. everyone captured the girls... most had to calm them down with a few punches.. I walked towards Nazzira..

Me: you're okay now.. you're fine..

Nahomi hugged me and cried... she was really shocked and afraid...

Me: I promise I will always be there for you... even if I'm sent to save the queen of England.. I will always come back for you...

Nahomi: [crying] thank you .. so much...


(later.. in an interrogation room)

Me: so.. you were only hurting her to "get a laugh"?..
girl: yeah! nothing bad with it right?... right?..

I placed my foot over the girl's stomach and flipped her chair backwards...

Me: you tell me..

I injected a hallucinogen...

Me: you will never hurt her as long as I'm alive..

A Described View of Certain Daily Feelings

I wake up, its Monday..

Eleanor: Joseph, wake up.. wake up... time to go to school..
Me: ugh.. I can't take it.. wanna go to high school already..

Eleanor sat beside me..

Eleanor: listen.. just a month alright... you'll make it.. and we'll help you.. Hayley, is your squad ready?
Hayley: yup, ready to burn..
Eleanor: good.. we're leaving at 0600 hours... over.
Josh: better keep it safe at Chemistry.
Zach: yeah.. a small mistake and you'll get blown up.
Eleanor: alright guys, enough.. I think you're scaring Joseph..
Josh: sorry lad..

(we arrived.. we look at everyone worried about something)

Me: I wonder why is everybody so rushed..

(everybody were talking about a chemistry homework, they worried if it was okay or not)

Eleanor: got your chemistry checked up?
Me: .. yeah.. twice.. why?
Eleanor: better be sure..

(I took the Chemistry notebook)
Me: .. hmm .. it's all alright to me..
Eleanor: .. okay.. read it carefully.. anything?
Me: ...... nope..

(we waited for 2 hours until... Chemistry)
Eleanor: alright, everybody keep it ready... anything goes wrong, we rush and aid Joseph up.. copy?
Hayley: copy that up Ellie..

(The teacher passed around.. checking the notebooks... I looked around)
Teacher: this is NOT WHAT I ASKED FOR!
Me: you gotta be...
Eleanor: Joseph, relax... relax... keep it steady, your heart rate is coming up.. we need you steady..
Teacher: again! ... THIS ISN'T WHAT I ASKED FOR.. The lines have to be straight! not below each other!
Me: I'm gonna die... I'm gonna die.. I'm gonna die...I need to correct it!
Hayley: steady man! .. steady!.. you'll be fine!.. you have some time! ..


My heart rate increased excessively... my vision began to blur flickeringly... I took the pencil.. and began to write, correcting the errors..

Me: .. I'm not gonna make it.. I'm not gonna make it..
Eleanor: keep going Joseph! you can make it! ..
Me: ... I'm trying! I'M GODDAMN TRYING!

The teacher turned around.. for me.. everything became slow-motion... I looked at Eleanor.. then I shut my eyes really tight..

Me: (almost crying) tell Nazzira I'm...!

Teacher: AGAIN! I TOLD YOU MANY TIMES! THIS IS WRONG!

I got deafened by the teacher's screaming... my blood pressure went low, my vision became darkened and my mouth completely dry, while I felt constriction in my chest..

Eleanor: NO!!.. wake up! wake up! .. come on! you have to get up!
Hayley: f**k... that was a hard hit.. Josh! bring me some water!
Eleanor: this is bad... bad.. bad... bad..
Hayley: he's gonna be fine.. he got really lucky...

(My vision began to return gradually. It was still blurry...Hayley placed the water bottle on my mouth and made me drink it.. )

Hayley: come on dude.. respond.. ..

(I tried to talk but I couldn't..)
Eleanor: ... he's barely breathing..
Hayley: hold the pressure!.. come on..
(Hayley gave me more water.. now I was regulated.. yet a little weak from the impact)

Eleanor: ... you good?..
Me: yeah... kinda better..
(I placed my head over my forehead)
Eleanor: that was really scary...

(the class was over..Hayley and her squad helped me walk out of the classroom... Eleanor, behind us, looked at the whiteboard with hatred... and she stabbed a metal ruler to it..... then she walked out)

The Long Walk to a Heart-Keeping Girl

I was with my classmates and teachers during a trip in the woods... I always saw a girl walking through the woods in her bare feet and wearing a white dress... her black hair waving with the wind.. and she always smiled..

one day... I decided to follow her .. teachers began screaming at me to get back in the line.. I obviously ignored them. I totally hated any teacher who screamed at me in a bad way. They chased me... until I got lost... but I found the girl... I saw her eyes... and I fell in love...

I was getting pressed by school... by everything .. every homework.. even a DAMN LONG essay about a whole Chemistry book... but I said.. "I have an excuse... I got lost in the woods"...

and .. yeah.. I found myself in the woods... with the girl... the loveliest girl I ever saw... she hugged me.. I felt heat in my heart.. and I hugged her back... and we slept in the forest...

she talked to me about herself... she did went to school... she had the same pressures as I did.. and she came to the forest to relax... to get away from the city for a while... her parents lived close to where we were..

then .. we talked, and talked... about our lives... and how people sometimes damaged us.. and others healed us... and then... she closed her eyes... and I closed mine... and we kissed... I felt in heaven..

I woke up in at morning... in the forest...and I saw her in front of me.. she smiled... and told me to follow her... I did... and I tried to look and her eyes.. and she always turned away.. giggling and blushing.. then I saw the students and the teachers.. they spotted us.. and we were chased..

we rushed through the woods.. then we saw a waterfall... we tripped and fell over the cliff... we heard the teachers coming... and I saw "her" looking at me.. scared.. then I went on top of her to protect her from the teachers.. then we rolled and fell to the water.. then I helped her swim to the surface...

she seemed unconscious and I gave her some mouth-to-mouth.. but it was all a trick from her.. and it was actually a kiss..

I felt all my pressures disappear .. and I realized.. I wasn't lost in the woods... I had found a real path to happiness..

The Strongest Wire

In a beach... it was a cloudy and the sun's rays partially passed the clouds...I was sitting at the shore, looking at the ocean, I was wearing normal clothing, jeans, t shirt and shoes.. normality... yet I had a very sad look on my face.. ..I lied down on the sand.. Then I saw a black haired girl, with almost a pale skin.. running over the sand..a very familiar face to me, maybe not to you. She giggled as she ran... I stood up and saw her... she smiled, but suddenly, her face changed to a worried one.. and the whole beach turned into a 1942 battlefield... it was like World War 2.. but the world fighting each other.. no sides.. I suddenly saw myself wearing a soldier's uniform, carrying a rifle... I ran towards the girl.. I felt the pounding noise of mortar rounds landing near me, the bombing planes flying over.. I also heard bullets pass close to my ears.. I heard my breath, struggling to catch air... it was horrible.. how I woke up from a calm beach to a war-torn world, my own race killing each other.. but when I saw the girl, I knew there were still people who believed in love.

I ran and ran.. until a man pushed her and aimed at her head with a rifle...

Fear ran through me, and I shot my rifle against him, screaming... not stopping by any reason until I emptied it..... she stood up.. and I hugged her as if she was my own daughter.. I couldn't help crying... I hugged her tight as my tears ran through my face.. and later... there was no war..

How beautiful is when you hug someone, and feel that your pressures, your nightmares and all your worries disappear... when only one person hugs you... and you get to know that he.. or in my case she.. is not only a person.. but she's one of the few people that are able to demonstrate affection with no fear.. she's not only a friend.. but she's like a sister to me..

Patient #7: Sleeping Beauty

(Setting: a futurized world)
... my school went to a visit into a hospital.... We took a tour through it's halls.. everything was doctors aided by machines.. surgeries were done by controlling the brain instead of opening the patient.. However, we reached a hall.. we walked and it was where patients with psychological problems were kept in... I heard stories that the doctors could actually get into your mind and cure any obsession. When we reached room #7 .. I saw a girl, her dark hair hanging from the bed..she was pale white.. she had cables on her arms.. but I saw beauty in her.. The guide told me she was diagnosed with 5 phobias: to water, to light, to nature, to any kind of love, and to wake up. She was being treated since the last 3 years.

I felt really bad for her.. I walked along with my classmates.. until

"Joseph! Get back here!"

I ran as fast as I could to the room and locked the doors.

Everything was quiet
"Im screwed, but I won't let her be like that forever"

I layed down the bed next to her.. needles approached my head.. and suddenly entered my skull.. through the sides and the spinal cord.

I was in her world now... It was dark... but I could perceive her. She was laying down on the floor.. "who are you?" .. she asked softly.

"Joseph.. and you?"
"Eleanor.... ahh I .. I can't talk to you Im sorry!"
"why? .. you're afraid of love?"
"don't say that word!.. It's horrible!!"
"why are you afraid of it?"
"boys break hearts... they do that! ALWAYS!"
"I know it's hard ... But.. they're just people... they changed you.. don't let them control your feelings! You can still change back to normal!"
" but it will happen.. Over and over!"
Eleanor cried...

"and if I told you I feel something for you?"
"I would kill you with my own hands" Eleanor said with a cold tone...

I thought for a while... then

"I'll risk it"
I kissed Eleanor... I held the kiss really long.. she was tense but she later relaxed.. and hugged me...and I discovered that the doctors were not paying attention to her love phobia and origins.. that was the root of all the other phobias...

We woke up ... I saw Eleanor's beautiful blue eyes open.. the doctors were outside.. Eleanor stepped out and the doctors looked at her in shock then turned to look at me the same way...she took my hand and pulled me with her outside the hospital.. she lied on the grass ... and thanked me with an everlasting soft kiss 

Monday, April 19, 2010

Parashoot

A hater mob outside a Paramore concert was waiting to capture Hayley.. 

we approached in a black car.. 

Hayley: they're kinda a lot... 
Me: I know.. better keep it silent.. 
Josh: silent!?
Zac: dude.. 
Josh: well.. somehow, we'll have to go loud..
Jeremy: guys.. really.. they seem like they really hate us.
Hayley: Joseph...
Me: yeah?
Hayley: is this gonna be like in those zombie movies?
Me: I guess... why?
Hayley: I love those.. 

we slowly walked... silently.. covered with hoodies.. 

one of the haters approached Hayley.. 

Hater: hey.. hey!.. wanna join us against Paramore?

then he recognized her.. 

Hater: oh sh**.. GUYS!.. 

I quickly covered his mouth and dragged him towards a dark street.. 

later... the hater ran out of the dark street.. scared and with a flare tied to his back.. 

Hater: I HAVE A BOMB ON MY BACK! GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF!! AHHH!! 

the hater leader removed the flare..

Hater 2: .. it's a flare..not a bomb!.. 

Hater: the Paramore guys... they're in that street.. 

Hayley was spotted by the haters.. walking alone through the dark street.. 

Hater: STOP RIGHT THERE! YOU *****

the other members and I were hidden in a 7-eleven store.. 

Me: they called her a.. 
Josh: hold it man.. 
Hater: you better come right here ... otherwise.. we'll simply torture you to make you end Paramore.. 
Hayley: come on.. try it..
Me: *whispering* don't even get close to her you sh**hole.. guys.. take a deodorant can.. and a lighter.. let's heat the night.. 

I took a deodorant can and a lighter.. 

Hater: come on! we don't have all night!
Hayley f*** you! get away from me!

Hayley ran and the mob was about to chase her when one of the haters got burned by one of our flames.. then they all chased us.. 

Me: remember.. try not taking casualties! keep moving forward!

we ran about 3 blocks... we missed them approaching the 4th block.. we climbed on a house..and spent about an hour.. until one of the haters climbed... Hayley punched and pushed him off the house.. 

Hayley: we have to get off this house.. 

Hater: we found them! found em!
Hater: burn em down!!

Josh: kidding me right?.. 
Jeremy: flame sprays! get off the building!
Zac: anybody heard of a weapon store nearby?!
Hayley: I think there's one ... half a click away..

we jumped from rooftop to rooftop... reaching the store and silently climbing down the last house... we breached into the store.. 

Me: take all the weaponry you can.. remember.. just self defense.. no anger-management killing.

the band and I took rifles, grenades and anything useful but light to defend ourselves during the night and reach home.

Hater: found them! 

the bad closed their eyes for a while... the door was closed... they were nervous.. taking cover behind the walls.. 

Hayley: this is not for the band guys... the whole Earth is full of hate.. contaminated by these guys.. 
Me: I'm sorry guys.. 
Hayley: why?

I sat down in regret.. 

Me: you're here because of me... really.. you don't deserve this.. 
Hayley: these aren't your haters... maybe if you weren't here.. they would have captured us already.. and yeah... the end of Paramore.. 
Josh: yeah dude.. we're guys but .. not really into fighting off haters.. plus.. we did not had any security available.. 
Me: ahh.. okay.. but I still think its my fault.. 
Hayley: oh come on!.. stop lying to yourself and make us the honor.. guys.. open the gate...
Me: wait... Hayley.. 

I kissed Hayley.. 

Hayley: I .. didn't expected that one..
Me: just in case we die.. 
Hayley: don't worry.. if you loved that kiss.. you won't die

The gate slowly opened... we looked at each other... I took Hayley's hand for a while.. 

Josh: take cover guys! move move move!

we shot down the front line of haters.. some were at the rooftops.. we took cover behind cars and low walls.. 

Hayley: second floor balcony!
Zac: got him! got him!

he shot the hater off.. we were partially clear and ran towards a block.. left of our current position, returning towards the black car we were on before.. 

a mile away... we ran towards the car.. we reached it.. 

Me: get inside everyone!.. Hayley! get in!
Hayley: got it!.. got..!

a hater tackled Hayley.. she struggled to get him off.. then he pressed Hayley's neck.. attempting to choke her.. 

Hayley: get him... *strained breath*... 
Me: I'm sorry for the casualties.. 

I ran towards them and slammed my rifle towards the Hater's back.. he rolled away from Hayley.. but he stood up and took a knife.. Hayley took a gun and shot his arm and leg.. 

Me: come on.. 

I carried Hayley to the car.. we drove away.. 

Hayley: *thinking* I can't believe how humanity reacts... every single person tries to make the world fit to their likings.. but they don't consider other people's ... they simply want to express their hatred for something and suddenly get out of control.. like a flame.. if they want to help the world.. why won't they start with themselves? ... sometimes this world just becomes a nuthouse..